What am I afraid of?

He is near... so very near.  Lord, we pray in your mercy and grace that you would help us actually live the reality these words point to.

This week the fifth implication stood out to me most: Because the Lord is near, in both space and time, it is possible to think clearly, cleanly.
Again and again DJ expresses who Jesus is.  He is Truth.  He is Noble.  Right.  Pure.  Just.  He is Joy.
I understand Miriam here as I think about how embarrassed/ ashamed I am.  I am not these things.  Nor do I always trust in the one who IS.  My pray this day/ weekend is that God would take my mind and fix it on Himself.  I can clearly hear the passion and the gritted teeth when DJ spits the word "fix".  I feel that resistance.  Lord please overcome that resistance.

A second note from this week's message: DJ helped me realize that during the amount of times I have read these verses before I seem to have always jumped over the second part of verse five, "The Lord is near."  While so many other parts were underlined, circled, with notes in the margins, it made it difficult to even see and read that Truth, "The Lord is near."
I am so quick to circle all the things "I need to do," I am plagued by the important versus the urgent (I can honestly never remember which is which though), I want to be able to figure out just how much I need to do.
Lord, would you transform my mind to read that indicative first.  May I remember that it is out of the love of You, and the knowledge and understanding of You, that all else flows.

Finally, what am I afraid of?  Control, not having that monopoly over truth (thanks again Mirm)...
I think the fact that I want to erase through this all suggests that I am offended.  I pray lastly that we all may cast our cares, anxieties, thoughts, hopes and fears on the one who knows them all, and defiantly loves us nevertheless.