Drawn near to the heart of Jesus

"As we get closer to His heart we discover that it is a broken heart." 

"In Him, we see what humanity was created to be." 

After listening to the sermon, I began to ask Jesus to draw me to Himself and as He did I caught a sorrowful glimpse of His heart. Last Tuesday I attempted to quickly clean our store's lobby, just minutes away from closing our store a talkative customer began a conversation with me. I initially thought "oh no, how long is this going to be" but in this not so great response God extended His invitation to draw near and this time I accepted. God drew me near to His heart for this man and I mourned when I caught a glimpse of the deep love God has for Him, along with an overwhelming sense that he may be unaware of this great love. 

Again in a conversation with my youngest sister Jesus extended an invitation to draw near as I tried to answer a strange question she had about Jesus. I first began to respond with an attitude/ goal to quickly fix and "make right" her understanding. But interrupting this response, I accepted His invitation, catching a glimpse of how Jesus lovingly sees her and recognizing that it will take much more than my human explanation for her searching heart to be answered, and I mourned. 

Far too often do I reject Christ's invitation to draw near in order to avoid the pain of it. 

Jesus, please draw me to yourself. In discomfort, draw me to yourself. In worry, draw me to yourself. In discontentment, draw me to yourself. In avoidance, draw me to yourself. In an attitude of fixing, draw me to yourself. Jesus draw me near to you and your heart despite my resistance to experience a soul of sorrow. 

Last quotes/ mini thoughts: 

"Who then are the mourners? Who then are the mourners Jesus blesses... they are those who have caught a glimpse of God's new day and who ache with all their being for that new day to come and break out into tears when confronted with its absence. The mourners are visionaries." 

These words from DJ remind me of Mirm. She is wonderful example of someone who has allowed herself to be drawn close to the heart of the Lord, anticipating the vision/ coming of His new day. 

And last.....

Jesus says, "You do not know the things that make for peace."