This week’s
sermon on murder shook me to the core….
As DJ
spoke about unresolved anger, I was rattled. It’s funny because as the sermon
started, I had this moment of disappointment as I thought to myself, ‘oh… a
sermon on murder…? I was really hoping for something more applicable this
morning.’ LOL, the irony of pride.
I have
been painfully and graciously shown the darkness of unresolved anger in my
heart toward the parents that I work for (as a nanny). A pattern of frustration
and hurt that I have blamed on them has left me bitter and quite tired. It’s
felt good to play the victim card, but that has come back to bite me in the
butt and I’ve found this sermon to be a huge kick in the pants I’ve needed to
get my head straight and my HEART straight!
Perhaps I
have not murdered, but I have crossed their humanity with the violence of my own
heart. Darrell reminds us that we are given a new heart in Christ, a new heart that
restores us to our humanity. My prayer has been for so much grace this week to
turn from my resentment, my inhumanity, and to trust the humanity and light of the
great Lawgiver.
Jesus tells
us that his yoke is easy, and his burden is light. The yoke of resentment and
unresolved anger has weighed heavy on me, consuming my thoughts, disrupting my
relationships, and making me so very tired.
A little dose of severe mercy has brought me to my knees this week in realizing
that I am not the victim I so conveniently choose to label myself as, but guilty.
Guilty, yet forgiven, and graciously shown the path back to humanity in Jesus
Christ, the one who promises “my yoke is easy and my burden is light”.
Miriam - I agree with you when you say "The Yoke of Resentment and unresolved anger has weighed heavy on me, consumed my thoughts, disrupting my relationships, and making me so very tired."
ReplyDeleteThis idea that I am burdened by these things is showing me that there are pieces (many) of my life where I am not following Christ, for if I was I would not be burdened. It calls me to pray pray pray. Thanks for sharing
I love how you allowed the message to have such immediate, concrete, and laser precise impact on you.
ReplyDeleteThe fact that you used the phrases “bite me in the butt” and “kick in the pants” highlights for me the major disciplined discipleship God wreaks on those He loves.
I think me hiney would be more sore from last week’s sermon if I approached it more candidly and humbly (like you!)
Typo - should have been “my hiney” not “me hiney.” “Me hiney” sounds like the musings of a drunk leprechaun.
ReplyDeleteMy bad!