Sometimes I get so frustrated because I feel like all I talk about, think about and act out on are my same potholes. I think seriously Kenzie its been years, get new ones! Move on already!
Then I realize I have missed the point all together. I am constantly looking for that one verse that makes everything click, or that one sermon, song, person, experience... etc. that will solve all my problems.
My trust issues are deep rooted in looking for hope, love, safety and acceptance in everything thats NOT Jesus. Ergo I'm constantly being let down.
So Jesus knocking on my door yelling "I can make this work!!!" is who I am going to let in this time.
I feel like I have always known the story of Abraham and Sara but not like this. It changes my perspective on who the Lord chooses to live out His will. Jesus came thousands of years after Abraham responded to His call. We will never know what our obedience will lead to. I always ask myself why I ended up in San Francisco and at this school.... and you know.... who knows??
I just have to keep following.
Love you guys and I'm so excited for what will be revealed to us as a team through this series.
- kenz
Kenzie, t's so true. I do the same thing. I was thinking about going through the trainee floats during the 2013 summer and how so much truth was spoken into my heart, yet I still allow those fears and insecurities to follow me today. Why? Jesus keeps telling me to "just follow," yet I find myself back at Step 1 almost daily. No matter what I hear from a sermon, from the Bible, or from Jesus directly seems to directly impact me. I continue to let my pride and arrogance stand in the way of His grace.
ReplyDeleteExactly! It's a nasty cycle. :( And yet he is still so gracious!
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