You hear me!

Man I needed this this week.
I have never been one to get overwhelmed or stressed out because of school, but this semester I have seen it happen more and more. Especially this week, during finals, when I feel like I have so much to do, all of my friends are home and together, and I keep crying out God, change my heart! Help me work for you and not for myself, I know that your burden is light.

I keep asking him for comfort and guidance and to have sovereignty in my life, and yet I still don't completely believe that his promise is true. That doubt creeps back in, along with the stress and exhaustion.

The reminder that his covenant is real, that his blood was poured out on my behalf, that I can live freely because he kept his promise, absolutely revived me.
I'm sitting here in the TCU library about to go take a final that I 'should have' studied for the last 30 minutes, but instead God said "Rest". So I turned on DJ's sermon and got wrecked.

God thank you that in the pit of my sin when I cry out for mercy, you hear me, love me, and forget. Thank you that you are victorious over this whole earth, and that each day is a day closer to your Kingdom. Thank you that you have put me on this campus to openly wrestle with performance and trying to manufacture my own security, so that you can show others the peace that is found in you. Thank you for continuing to use me despite how much I reject and betray you. Thank you for your mercy and grace!